how to be happy, a continuation.

i wake early.

i brew the coffee beans and start the pot. i sit down and read. a lot. my favorite blogs, the new york times, postsecret. i sit in the dark, in quiet. no tv, no music, just the sound of the air conditioner. sweet, delicious quiet. sloth curls up next to me and i rub his ear with my left hand and drink coffee from my right. i eat greek yogurt with kashi cereal and feel it fill me up. i edit and add to the grocery list. i think of the people i love and pray that they're happy and safe and healthy. i pray that oklahoma and its people get a break. i hear eva call for me and i go. 

i wake up, rhi. 

good morning, honey bunny.

hold me.

i organize the pantry and the refrigerator and the magnets on the front of it. i clean the bathroom and do more laundry. i try to bake cookies with eva, but when i burn myself a second time it's time to admit i'm nervous about my first day at a new job tomorrow. 

that's okay. that's normal. because it's been a damn long road to this point.

i step away from the oven.

i drink up the cuddles and the kisses i'll miss out on tomorrow. i let this fill me up. 

i make italian sausage and whole wheat gnocchi. i drink a glass of white wine. i let this fill me up.

i say thank you for this day. i stay hopeful about tomorrow.