yesterday was a hard day. i won't get into the why. the back story isn't important.
i had a moment of grace at an intersection of what could've been actual trouble. i was waiting at a red light in the proximity of three fast food restaurants: mcdonald's, burger king, and taco bell. me at age 15, 17, 21 would've made a quick left into the mcdonald's parking lot. i would've ordered the usual: two big macs, large fries, sweet and sour sauce to soak everything in, and a large pop. i am a creature of habit, for better or worse.
old habits did not creep back in yesterday.
i had a moment of grace at an intersection of what could've been actual trouble. i was waiting at a red light in the proximity of three fast food restaurants: mcdonald's, burger king, and taco bell. me at age 15, 17, 21 would've made a quick left into the mcdonald's parking lot. i would've ordered the usual: two big macs, large fries, sweet and sour sauce to soak everything in, and a large pop. i am a creature of habit, for better or worse.
old habits did not creep back in yesterday.
i sat in a friend's car listening, mostly singing, along to adele's live at the royal albert hall. i didn't turn it up. i already had it playing very loudly as this is how i like my music, but i didn't deliberately make it louder. i didn't tune out my feelings. i felt every single feeling i had in that moment, the good and the bad ones. i didn't rattle. i sat there and waited for the light to change. i didn't even want food.
everything is a choice. sometimes things are hard. you wait for green lights and keep going.
this is all you can do.
it's moments like this, at 3:45 on a monday afternoon, when i can feel how lost/sad/numb i used to be in those same moments ten years ago.
i can feel how far i've come. and how that woman's incredible voice made my own that much clearer.
everything is a choice. sometimes things are hard. you wait for green lights and keep going.
this is all you can do.
it's moments like this, at 3:45 on a monday afternoon, when i can feel how lost/sad/numb i used to be in those same moments ten years ago.
i can feel how far i've come. and how that woman's incredible voice made my own that much clearer.
This is beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing. Allowing yourself to feel what you're feeling is so important. Fabulous post, love! If you get a sec, I'd love to hear your thoughts on my latest trend report & post for LaurenConrad.com xo
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